will you love me until the bitter end?

when my bones are broken and my words have failed me?

will you still remember the way I looked on the first night you saw me?

when I have lost my mind, and not because of the poetry or the rhyme scheme, but because dementia will take me down and I may forget you

will you always promise to hold me close?

on days when I can’t stand to look at your face or hear your voice – and there will be days, oh, I promise you, there will be days.

will you call out for me in the middle of the night when you are laying next to her?

because everything we dreamed, is for dreaming.

we don’t wake up next to each other anymore

but I still feel the weight of your soul on my pillow

addicted to her –

methamphetamine

addicted to you –

morphine

addicted to hurt

wrap your hands around her neck

choking, grasping, gasping

for air – for you

tears of blood roll down white-washed cheeks

stare in her

eyes

devilish grin

cut her wrists

slash her throat

bleeding you out

breathe again

whole again

stitch her up

needle and thread

in, under, around, through

not all together – the same

no all together – broken